Thinking and praying . . .
So it’s been a pretty cool couple of days. I’m still overloaded by the job
(I’ll be replacing Dr. Waite). My mind simply cant wrap itself
around the exorbitant amount of responsibilities I’ll have. And
this is only HALF of my job! I haven’t even started training for
the position at Carter Center yet!
Thanks, Nellie, for pointing me to this awesome article
about the U.S. senate ACTUALLY getting something right! It’s
about friggin’ time! Though, one has to wonder where “moralists”
like Trent Lott were at the time. Makes you proud to be a
republican, don’t it? Eh, not
gonna blame the whole party for the silence of one. I just hope
he had a good excuse. But Mr. Lott has been hard pressed to come
up with those in his career.
In related African-American news, I emailed my dawg Brian McLaren a few
weeks ago about the presence of Blacks (or the lack thereof) in the
emergent movement. I didn’t expect him to actually answer me,
considering the number of emails he gets on his site every day, but he
totally did! Check it out!
As you may recall from a previous post of mine, I actually talked to
Brian about some of this at a previous visit (when he and Tony Campolo
were presenting together), and he told me that he suspected that there
would soon be an emergent cohort for Blacks, as a result of some
“dialogue” he’d had. But what he nor I knew at the time, was that
he was expecting ME to be the one to start the cohort!
Hmmm . . . I dunno. I think I’m gonna really have to pray about
this one. Because yesterday (before I discovered that my query
had been addressed on his site), it hit me that I’ve been a bystander
in this pomo “conversation” for far too long. And I was ready to step INTO the conversation and
become a “friend of emergent” (www. emergentvillage.com),
but then I stopped and thought “hmm, don’t you think you should pray
about this first?” So I did. I spent a good deal of time
thinking about it – how much I enjoy this group, and the dialogue I’ve
had with it’s leaders and members thus far. I remember the last
time I was afraid to jump into such a community of love and
exploration, and it turned out to be the best experience of my
life! Is that what God is calling me to now?
Hard to say. But I’m really praying about it right now, and we’ll
see where that leads. I’m leaning heavily on becoming a “friend
of emergent”, and I’ve already addressed the proper folks to find out
about creating a cohort for minorities.
There are some other things I’m committing to right now as well.
The meeting with Josh went very well. But I fear this group is
going to be a bit on the legalistic side for my taste . . . but we’ll
see. It seemed like the Lord was leading me to Regen moreso than
the groups I tried out last Friday (see some of my previous “CTPs”
about that). I’m gonna go and get a feel for this group perhaps
next Tuesday, but that would necessitate me leaving my small
group. I’m worried about how that’s gonna look seeing as how the
last time I was there, one of the leaders and I had an exchange (both
during and after the Bible study), and it wasn’t pretty! But I
don’t want Eden or her hubby thinking that this is the reason why I’m
leaving (well, not the ONLY reason, anyway).
I can’t lie. I’m growing increasingly more agitated by people at
Trinity. Or perhaps “isolated” would be a better
descriptor. I ran into a friend today who goes to my church. Her
small group is going through “What’s So Amazing About Grace?” by Philip
Yancey. Now, the book is EXCELLENT! He’s got some seriously
profound thoughts in there. And when I asked her about it, she
said she didn’t like the book. I asked her to expound, and found
out that the reason was because of how Yancey treated Mel White in his
homosexuality (i.e., he refused to shun his friend, but has been
supporting and loving, though not agreeing with the lifestyle).
And it’s shit like that that seriously bothers me. An entire
book, replete with wisdom and fresh insights, and she dislikes it b/c
of ONE CHAPTER and his take on how to treat homosexuals with love and grace?
Why do I even bother with these people?? With this
church?? To be sure, this friend is a wonderful person, and I
love her to death. But my views are clearly different than hers –
and most others I’ve communicated with at Trinity.
My leanings are just way too contrary to the status quo. The easy
thing would be to just run, but that would be too much like being
beaten. I’m not ashamed of the way I view Christ, love, mercy,
grace, and sin. But I can’t help but think that I cannot grow in
this community where there are no like-minded believers. Dang, I
miss Ahmun. I hope that brotha comes back soon!
Anywho, I’m gonna be outtie now. Another lonely night draws to a close