Lord have mercy . . .
An old Bible study leader of mine (Dave) used to say: “Justice is getting what you deserve; mercy is not getting what you deserve; and grace is getting what you don’t deserve.”
That grace part really reverberated in my gut. As it should for any good Evangelical. I never really worried too much about that silly mercy part though. After all, when you’re the Evangelical shiznit, who needs mercy, right?
Hey, I do.
As my life has been jilted into oblivion, I’ve come to realize just how far away I truly am from ever measuring up to any standard one would call “holy”. Grace is great, but you may have noticed in recent months that I’ve ended some posts with “Lord, have mercy . . . “
I seriously need it. I feel like I can’t do right no matter what I choose, and I haven’t the strength to do right even if I were to choose it. And I find myself simply pleading for Christ to have mercy on me. I’m grateful that I’ve recently been taught “the Jesus Prayer” (from Orthodox traditions):
“Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me a sinner.”
I remember saying that over and over in my car the other night, and suddenly feeling so close to Jesus – so comforted by His presence. At least I know He hasn’t left me. I hate being so screwed up But He’s surely been merciful through it all.
I pray the Lord’s mercy on you all . . . may you not get what you deserve.