I’m losing energy, motivation, hope, reality . . . life is such a big confusing mess right now.
The worse thing about fighting yourself when you’re a good fighter is that no one wins. I lose against myself either way. It seems that there simply are no answers sometimes . . . and that usually doesn’t bother me, but today it does. I need . . .
I don’t know why I beat myself up so much about not loving people the way I should, but I do.
This is not a pity post. I am not looking for encouragement. I’m simply venting. This is my catharsis.
In brighter news, the incomparable Paul successfully convinced me a couple of days ago to invest in the 2-disc, original Broadway cast “Rent” soundtrack, and I’m friggin glad he did!
The movie . . . comes out TOMORROW!! My only regret is that I’ll be busy opening night and won’t be able to see it But I’m friggin’ EXCITED b/c the reviews have all been great! I can’t wait to see it!!