Last week, I had the WONDERFUL opportunity to catch up with some old friends. See, back when I first started pharm school (almost 6 years ago!), I didn’t have a church, and didn’t have much Christian fellowship. The good thing about that was that it was my first real venture outside of my Christian bubble, and I learned quite a bit about real life in the real world – and was humbled to learn some profoundly spiritual lessons from my many unchurched friends.
But what was lacking was a bit of grounding. My soul was just freely flailing about. But then I found University Christian Fellowship (UCF was a non-denom, campus-wide Bible study at UMB) – which happened to be run by the Korean church that I was to call home for 3 years.
And there, I met some really wonderful people who nurtured my soul. People like Dave, and Maki, and Kim, and Janelle, and Edmund, and Conrad, and Autumn, and several others – most of whom left due to graduation, and residencies, and so forth. So my second year, UCF got a face lift. The majority of the fellowship was made up of this unlikely set of diverse, 1st year med students. And for 2 years, these guys filled my heart with a sense of stability – not to mention a whole lotta laughter! Mike, Darlene, John, Ray, Mo, Dave, Mary (aka Smiley), and Kerri. Yeah, a great group of folks.
After I graduated, I obviously couldn’t be around for UCF much – especially since I started fellowshipping at a new church (a mistake now, I see! lol). But Tuesday nite, I got to reunite w/ those guys, and it just filled my heart with such peace to reconnect with some folks who were seriously good friends to me. Special shout-out to Mike, John, and Ray- who were my accountability partners for a few months. (The last guy in the pic is Ray’s old friend, Maarten, who “replaced” me when I couldn’t make our meetings anymore). Man, that was good stuff. I remember being SOOOO nervous going to those meetings – afraid that I would be rejected and shunned. But those guys showed me nothing but love and affection. Damn, I miss you guys!
So if you old UCFers are reading along, I just wanted to say how much I love you and miss you – you guys hold a very special, sacred place in my heart. I’ll never forget you. You better keep in touch!
The weekend was really great. Friday nite was a chill time w/ the small group. Saturday morning, I went to work at Sheppard Pratt, and then headed down to see the fam (including my ADORABLE niece, who is seriously too cute to be real). It was honestly the first time I’ve been home and didn’t leave with a sense of hating myself. I’m really learning how to accept being me, and not worry so much about the fact that I seem to be so very different from everyone else in my family.
Today I went to CR. Matthew started a new serious on doing life together. He’s got me thinking a lot about community and intimacy – things which I’ve really been shying away from lately because I’ve been burned too many damn times. Yet, those are things that I’ve always had a passion for.
Got to hang out w/ Jane and Christy and Yohance for lunch an a pretty good Cuban restaurant, came home, took a nap, and then went for a run. I FINALLY did a 5K in less than 30 minutes (which was my original goal)!!!
OK, OK, I know that doesn’t sound particularly impressive to some of you runners out there (shudup, Canadian John!), but seriously, I’ve been hitting this wall where for some reason, the past couple of weeks, I could not for the life of me do a 5K in less than 35 minutes! No matter how fast I thought I was running, somehow, it always ended up being a 35 minute run! But today, out of the friggin’ blue, I did it in 26 minutes! WTF ??? Strange. But I’ll take it! I just hope it’s not a one-time thing.
Anyway, it’s late. I need sleep. Good nite, one and all.
Oh, and J-man, I love you too By the way, you inspired me to watch “Family Guy” tonite for the first time, and I must say, that is a freakin HILARIOUS show!